Perspective

Well things have certainly changed alot for Allison and I. With our little man changing every day we are starting to notice changes in ourselves. The things that stressed us out before amazingly still stress us out. The things that we worried about are still daily concerns for us. While Caleb brings us so much joy and wonderment we have definitely learned that a baby doesn't suddenly make things "happy". Instead the changes that we have seen are in our daily perspectives. When we stress about money it is only because we want to provide for him. When we stress about sleep it is only because we are trying to balance rest while not missing anything he does. While work brings on stress it is only the stress of being away from him. While bad drivers still cause "road rage" it is only because we are fearful of our little man getting hurt(so don't honk if I am doing the speed limit).
It is truly amazing how "me" is not even really a concept in our daily lives anymore and even more amazing how I don't even miss it. It's not that we were really selfish before...well maybe sometimes...it's that we just didn't really take the time...or I should say I didn't take the time. I really felt pretty good about myself before. After all, I have spent over 28 years perfecting my "craft". Though it only took one look from my wife a little over two years ago when we met and now that first look from my son that really shook things up. Allison gave me the confidence in who I had become and Caleb has challenged me without words to become more. I've never been one of those that wanted to be rich and have everything and somehow I have become exactly that. While it may sound cheesy...which I know it does... I have become more than rich and I have more than everything. I have a family. I am a father. No amount of money or things, while great or small, will ever be able to change that.